I'm BA-ACK!!!!

So, a whole month (essentially) since I've blogged.

Why, you ask? Well, OK, so you didn't (well, Trina did, and David commented), but I'll tell you anyway!

A lot of reasons, really. Partially just crazy busy life, which was cutting down on time in front of a computer when I didn't need to be doing other things.

Partially a lot of stress in my life lately, which affects my mood. And while blogging can be good for one's soul, to a point, I have a hard time blogging when I'm upset. When I'm very upset, I tend to dwell on things, perhaps even obsess (resounding chorus of, "Nah, ya THINK?!?!" from the peanut gallery). And, quite frankly, I tend to NOT blog, because I don't want to blog about the things that are upsetting me.

But I am in a much better mood of late, which is, in and of itself, a little disturbing. While yes, there's been much in my life lately causing me stress and angst, I was noticing that I was not reacting to it as I felt I should. It wasn't that I was having inappropriate reactions (i.e. no tears when Grace brought home a great report card), but it was as if my reactions were a bit extreme. Or, a better analogy: if I'd been a thermostat, a .05 degree difference in temperature would cause me to kick in and try to heat the world. And, yes, that in and of itself was very disturbing, and scary.

And then I read an article that said that in some people, for some reason, statins can affect moods. And I've been on Lipitor since November.

So, I went to my doctor. I told her all the things going on in my life. I told her what I was doing, behaviorially, to deal with them. We talked about the anecdotal evidence that Lipitor can affect mood (cause it is mainly anecdotal), and we talked about the very, very small body of empirical evidence showing similar correlations (and, yes, I know that correlation is NOT the same as causation).

And, in the end, we decided it couldn't hurt to do a little experiment, and take me off Lipitor for a bit, just to see what'll happen.

And my mood has improved. Now, granted, I'm also still working on the stressors in my life, so it may not be the lack o' Lipitor.

But part of me doesn't care -- it doesn't really matter WHY I feel better, but I do.

So, I'm back, baby!